9/4/13

I had a bad day today . I love my mom,I really do but sometimes I just want to get away,I have been here for maybe half a day and I already want to go home. It makes me feel like im a bad person,but my mom is just so negative and it affects me. She starts to tell me all her problems and in turn I start to think of my own. I am not good with dealing with problems,I run from them because I don't WANT to feel sad. I cant handle when I'm sad,it gets blown out so far and I feel like the world will end. I am not as strong as everyone thinks I am now. I still struggle to be happy everyday. Its harder then they know. I just....I honestly only want to talk to one person,a SINGLE person. The moment I started to feel down,he was who I wanted to talk to. He ignored me,I just...I wish he cared. Why do I care so much for someone who makes me question how valuable I am as a person? Why cant I be enough?